Shambolic Experience and Developing Earth Centered Consciousness

The first time I walked into the main meditation hall at the Shambala Center in Boulder, Colorado, I was dropped instantly to my knees. Such a tactile flood of loving presence coupled with great peace moved into my body. I wept in joy and astonishment at how palpable the bright and benevolent energies were in that place and how it was tended by such powerful beings full of grace. The entire hall was filled with unnaturally golden light and the snow-capped Rocky Mountains were reflected in all the towering windows. I was held in a bowl of light.

I am not a Buddhist.

This place is a place where so many Roshis and great Buddhist teachers have come in illness and near death or have been brought here after death. It is a place where untold thousands have gathered in hopes of touching their deepest humanity through the practice. It is a place where great teachings of mindfulness, of what it means to be a conscious human being have occurred over and over, endlessly. And this history has created a songline of sorts in this gathering space. You can actively feel the presence of all those glorious beings watching over you and filling you with awe.

(fade left)… My work’s primary purpose is to be participant in people connecting with their true nature and finding equanimity with whatever stands in the way of that. What I experience as fundamental to this is guiding them to connection with the conscious Earth and all of her non-human species and with the participation of all the benevolent spirit beings, elementals and Ancestors who wish us well and who have such beauty and knowing to share with us.

About this blog

About this blog

As as recurring reminder: I write here primarily as a form of archiving some thoughts that come to me mostly as a result of my personal animist practice. I don’t promote these, do not charge money or generate any income and they are added here only as a way for me to keep track of my reflections over the years in one place, as I can be disorganized. If you are reading here, you are one of a rare few!

Samhain Visitation

Samhain Visitation

But this is the Samhain I'm most reflecting on right now. Nova and I would spend a day telling family stories, either tight with anger, desolate in grief or barking with laughter, while slowly building our altar filled with mementos to the dead, with items of power, and covered in the finest chocolates and pomegranates. Come dusk on the first day we would venture out to wander the Greenway close to her home to see if there were any wandering spirits who might wish for passage.


In Another Life

For Astare:

In another life I stand with nose pressed against yours in the high plains, caressing your muzzle...

In another life I squall in a filthy basket, misplaced in the exodus...

In another life I smell your moist breath all night in the stall, poor and happy...

In another life I skate restlessly across frozen Lake Saimaa in search of I never know what, another version of freedom...

In another life I am loud, political and save many of you from slaughter, but never find You...

In another life I'm not given up for adoption but grow twisted and grief stricken anyway...

In another life we're inseparable, traveling northern trails together for 30 blissful years until you leave me to decades of desolation...

In another life I rebel, leave home, find the streets of cities and make my art, learning the language of agitated striving...

In another life you stand guardian of my sleep under cold stars, nuzzling me awake when we need to move on...

In another life I wander plundered landscapes planting flowers and trees until my worn fingers glow green, and I sing of you

In another life I make too many babies in wartime, and it's always wartime, and I thankfully die young...

In another life I wed a tree who chants your name for me in my dreams so I don't forget you...

In another life our love meets for the infinith time, always returning to you, bright star...